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Running is one the best solutions to a clear mind - Sasha Azevedo

>> 22 August 2008


This week I ran my first ever 10 km !


I run on a relatively regular basis. Usually a +/- 5 km tour on a concrete path winding through fields behind our house. After a while, I noticed the wish for something new and looked up some running events nearby. I did not want to start out with a real competition immediately, but something different to measure myself by. There is a 'fun' run end of August where you can choose between a 5K or 10K run.

I decided to participate and do the 5K.

As the run came nearer, the 10K figure kept looming in the background. Never having run 10K before however, I was very skeptic whether I could actually make that distance. I am always quite happy and satisfied after 5K. No need to add frustration to my new sport.

On Monday I ran my usual 5K tour and on Wednesday I just decided to go for a 10K tryout. I wouldn't know until I tried. And if I got tired along the way I could still just walk home.

Funny enough I hit a first hard stretch 20 minutes into the run, which is normally the time when things start to get easy during my 5K run. I figured it was just psychological. 20 min means I'm about halfway in my 5K run. Here I knew I still have much more to go. But I kept running and taking it easy. It was also a completely new route to me, running-wise anyway. It was raining a bit in the beginning, so I was wearing my rain gear. Then the sun came out and I was getting too warm. In the end I was happy I put it on though: better too warm then cold.

There were a few stretches that I had to walk. I am not so good at running uphill :-)

After a while though, my legs became a sort of machine and even my breathing seemed completely superficial and the notion of it almost disappeared. I never experienced that during a 5K run.

I was elated to arrive home and see that I had done the 10K in 1 hour and 13 minutes.


So I think I will definitely try to run the 10K during that fun run.


Anything you resist, persists - and gets stronger.

>> 18 August 2008

Apparently 'working on yourself doesn't work'.

At least according to Ariel and Shya Kane who wrote a book with the same title. I am currently reading books about creativity, personal and spiritual growth, getting things done and how to start.

The book was a quick read and the first night reading in bed I was alone and able to concentrate on the message. As always, I find it hard to 'get it' while reading. Not because of the language per se, but because I cannot get my mind to wrap around it and understand mentally and physically what is meant by the message.

So the authors had explained how to get to the moment and that like on a map, you first need to know where you are to find out how to get to where you want to go. Yes, I get that.

The book continued about 'awareness' - which I already find a difficult word (in the esoteric sense) to deal with - and the difference between change (which 'is incremental and happens over time: past/future') and transformation (which 'is exponential and instantaneous: now'). I was tring to grasp that concept in my late at night mind.

Their explanation on prejudices and how having to be right all the time (even when you're wrong and especially while you're right) gets you in a circle of having to prove the other wrong. To be really alive you have to stop wanting to be right all the time. That still made sense to me although I have a tendency to wanting to be right...

The book continued onto our past and our memories and successfully proved to me why my memories are mostly wrong and if they are right they represent me at that time in the past from which I have evolved since.

And then the book started to go what I call 'a bit weird', i.e. took turn which was a bit too esoteric to my liking. The authors were explaining a private consulting session where just by massaging and 'being present without judging', the consulting woman had a breakdown remembering something from her past which changed her life forever. Yeah, ok then. I continued reading nevertheless.

I could relate again to the explanation they gave of 'being in the moment'. We all think that there has to be a reason for why we are the way we are. Attached to our life story, we blame someone or something. What if there is no reason? Basically, you can't blame how you are being in this moment on the past. You can't fix your childhood or anything else that happened in the past. I can see that.

Getting past the past is done by forgiveness. Forgiving the past instead of working on yourself to try to fix it. Moving from a psychological framework to an anthropological one (notating, neutrally observing what you witness without trying to change what is seen). When you're a child you judge your parent because you are unable to share the adult's perspective - by virtue of age and lack of maturity. The authors suggest that you try 'being' the other person rather than 'judging them from the outside'.
Though I can see their point, I am not sure how a child that was abused for example would be able to do that. Of course I agree that when you forgive you really and above all free yourself. But their example on one of the authors' mother just didn't hit home with me.

The book then continued with the principles of transformation. By this time I was sitting in bed with serious hiccups and was trying to hold my breath, swallow funnily etc to get rid of them. Nothing would do. I was reading the first principle which says

'Anything you resist, persists - and gets stronger'
(for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction).

The second principle says

'No two things can occupy the same space at the same time'.

Physically (no two person can sit in the same chair at the same time) or mentally (you cannot be happy and sad at the same time).
The third principle says

'Anything that you recreate or have be exactly as it is, will complete itself and disappear. In other words, if you let things actually be the way they are, they disappear'.

As I was reading, I was thinking about my hiccups and decided to just let them be. I tried to be 'in the moment' and give them the space they were already occupying anyway. And, believe it or not, they vanished. I couldn't believe it myself. I was stunned.

I continued reading with interest about how 'Each moment became a separate jewel in time. Not to be gotten away from or ignored, nor to be compared to the moment preceding it.' So being happy is not better than being sad. One cannot be happy all the time and we should quit pursuing that feeling and being present in all states of emotion we are in. Because the only moment true and lasting happiness can be achieved is NOW. 'Until you are willing to be the way you are - in any given moment - you can never be happy because happiness is only one of many emotions that human beings are capable of experiencing'. Cristal clear.

The authors continued to explain that the experiences we live through are written on our hard disk. Whenever we experience something similar, a window pops up and reminds us that we have lived a similar experience. The thought processes or emotions derived from such experiences tend to pop up and try to guide us in our 'now' experiences. But what happened then is not necessarily relevant or equal to now and we should stop ourselves from listening to 'old recordings'.

So should we make choices ('a selection made after consideration that is reflective of your heartfelt desires or authentic wishes' - basically 'expressions of your heart') or decisions (which are 'intellectually determined, based upon your considerations' - basically pro and con facts)?
Like with memories, decisions we made in our past cannot be blueprinted onto our current or future life. We should avoid linking that registered information to today's happenings. So no more 'déjà vu', no more telling ourselves the same things we did in the past, no more getting defensive about something or wanting to be right all the time.

The authors say we cannot get rid of that behaviour but bypass it and awareness is the key. We should 'notice our behaviour like anthropologists, it will allow us to disengage from old decisions'. We should live in the now, stop complaining and 'resisting circumstances in our life because that will only perpetuate dissatisfaction and generate pain'. Ahuh.

So I am thinking that I need to be aware of what I am doing, note what I am doing without passing judgment. I find that very difficult though. If I do something like yell at my boy for some silly thing he did that I don't approve of, all I can think about is that I should'nt be yelling at him, that I should try to better myself in order to find another way to tell him that what he is doing is wrong. Now that's not being in the moment and observing without judging, is it?

Trying to be better would be a decision which kills off alternatives. 'A simple noting that things are different than what you would prefer - and the way is open again'.
See, that is where I don't follow (yet).

And the book ends with an excerpt of Sengtsan's hsin hsin ming 'The great way':

The Great Way is not difficult
for those who have no preferences.
When love and hate are both absent
everything becomes clear and undisguised.
Make the smallest distinction, however,
and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart.
If you wish to see the truth
then hold no opinions for or against anything.
To set up what you like against what you dislike
is the disease of the mind.

Mmmmhhh... So I cannot have any preferences for anything? I am not sure how that is supposed to work.

All in all the book gave me some insights and additional thoughts on the 'living in the now' concept that I am interested in at the moment. But I was lacking a bit of hands on exercices to take home with me.


Seeing death as the end of life is like seeing the horizon as the end of the ocean - David Searls

>> 13 August 2008

Kris Carr found out she had cancer at age 31. She set out on a mission to conquer this disease highlighting the personal, crazy, sexy side of cancer.
She appeared on Oprah (see details here) and seemed such a wise, smart and full of life woman to me.
What a way to approach cancer. Check out the Crazy Sexy Cancer video:

The book Crazy Sexy Cancer Tips
Crazy Sexy Life forum site
Crazy Sexy Cancer
Kris Carr's blog
Kris Carr Photography
Interview with Kris on We Like it Raw

After Kris, Oprah had Randy Pausch on (see details here)who gave a sort of lecture which made me cry. He is dying of pancreatic cancer and only has a few months to live.
Here is his last lecture:

Randy Pausch's website.


Be a fountain, not a drain - Rex Hudler

>> 2 August 2008

I am bubbling with ideas. I want to create. I want to paint.
I have started painting again this year and although it was fun, I just couldn't seem to find my way around it. I was looking for the right medium (acrylic, oils, watercolors, pastels, crayons, collage, mixed media,...), the right art-style (abstract, figurative, realistic, naive,...), my path and inspiration.

I have written about Aboriginal Dreamings Art before. A long time ago I had started copying a painting I felt inspired by but I never got any further than just the background and some lines. I have recently picked it up, read a bit in the book about techniques (such as dot-painting), picked up a stick and just started dotting.
And guess what? I find it very relaxing and fun. And the result is just amazing! So now I can't wait to get this copy finished and start doing my own creations. I'll show the painting when it's done.

The other painting I recently worked on and finished is another technique I experimented with and which consists of using air-dry modelling clay to sculpt objects which I then then glue on the canvas. In this particulare case, I sculpted tulips which I painted and glued on a small canvas; I then stapled the small canvas on a bigger one. The result is a 3D painting:

What do you think?


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